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H. WRITES OUT THE SADNESS IN HIS HEART
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Albino Carrillo
Albino Carrillo is an Associate Professor of Poetry and Creative Writing in the English Department of the University of Dayton. His one book is IN THE CITY OF SMOKING MIRRORS, published by the University of Arizona Press. Over the past 21 years, his work has appeared in national literary journals such as The Americas Review, Puerto Del Sol, The Antioch Review, Blue Mesa Review, and Columbia.  
By Albino Carrillo
Published on 11/23/2005
 
            After twelve years, you’d think the long stretches
            of black birch and dogwood I’ve endured
            on my drives back East would’ve painted me
            the way they inhabit the long Pennsylvania winter.

            If it was all a dream of cute, mid-atlantic odalisques
            and deep chasms holding deeper rivers

            After twelve years, you’d think the long stretches
            of black birch and dogwood I’ve endured
            on my drives back East would’ve painted me
            the way they inhabit the long Pennsylvania winter.

            If it was all a dream of cute, mid-atlantic odalisques
            and deep chasms holding deeper rivers
            then I am quite satisfied. For in the presence
            of such bodies I was humbled.

            Driving one morning I saw in the distance
            a semi-tractor flinch on the ice of I-81--
            I was on my way to Harrisburg to catch a train
            and the snow had been falling all morning.

            Bowie was singing s on my blue SUV’s CD player--
            “The Bewley Brothers,” real cool dreamers so turned on
            he’d made a sad song about their mishaps.

            So when the disk started skipping

            I thought about the time I slipped
            on my slick wooden porch, tearing my left knee apart.
            This is all the suffering I abide by--I’ve become
            a fool for the cold morning that finds me shivering.

            Somehow, I wish you were here with me
            cascading down the turnpike, stoned
            on the last tid-bits of a Beatles song that
            has wrapped me up & into the invisible highway

            beyond my hood ornament, shining on the Western horizon
            like one of Belle Starr’s tits. Listen: the deal is this--
            my sister sent me a telescope for Christmas
            and I intend to visit each planet again.
       

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